Pond Muck

Since I am almost entirely egocentric...I will write about how I feel once again...

I am confused...I think it is such a bummer that you can't know what someone else is thinking/feeling...

So I asked for a little advice from someone today and then they told me that they and their sidekick (thing 1 and thing 2 I shall call them) said that I have no confidence with guys. I probably shouldn't snoop more but then I felt bad...and the answer got worse...

So thing 1 tells me that thing 2 knows the ex of the guy I like and sort of had a thing with her while she was with the guy I like...great...so then stupid me I ask if that girl was pretty...thing 1 said that thing 2 said I was a step above the ex....and that sufficed for a moment....

Until...I questioned what I was a step above...I don't want to be just a step above a troll...it's all so relative...:(

So to thing 1 and thing 2 being a step above pond muck is not my idea of happiness...next time you discuss me don't bother...

To those that feel I asked for it by prying....I agree...but cannot help that I am a dummy....

I missed kindergarten

Sometimes I don't want to share, and I consider something mine in totality.

So when someone recently asked me (in an abrupt way) that I give them something that is all mine I got very defensive. In fact I started getting angry, yelled, and ran away. I felt it was an intrusion of my rights.

I did calm down and even though I don't want to share... compromised.

I decided to share not ALL, but some of my something...and I still don't like it.

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I would like to give a shout out to whoever lowered gas prices....muchas gracias...and may you have many sons...haha

Nothing Great

You all know the feeling...the little butterflies....your feet turn in...you blush...and then say something profoundly stupid:)

All you want to say is .... I like you

Well....I like you certain someone...even though your a complete weirdo (in the best of ways)

I try not to think about it but when you like someone you regress...and forget how to turn off

Not to mention even though I like you....I am pretty sure you don't like me that way...and even if you did it wouldn't matter....

so...here's my childish declaration...I like you (nothing great but my butterflies can't take it in my tummy anymore)

On a off note...I love SNL...we need more cowbell

In twenty years....will dinosaurs exist

I had this strange epiphany today...I feel old
So before I get an eyeroll...I do realize I am not actually old...it's just because recently a number of important things have changed in my life, and they involve me packing on a whole lot of responsibility...Then I got anxiety over what if this is going to continue and I have plateaued and this is it...because I want so much more...mostly emotionally...so then there was anxiety...

until I realized that I am being ridiculous because I am young and I have so many chances ahead of me (I hope)...also that I shouldn't limit myself

I opened my eyes a little...because I realized that despite that sarcastic routine I put on that I really do want quality relationships (be it friends or romantic) and that maybe I should put in a little more effort...like calling people back and not blowing off people...

maybe that will be my new year's resolution...

Ravenous, ravenous rhinos

I love chipotle now....i think about it a lot...is that normal?...it is just food

Everytime I drive by it I want to stop...

Shareirei and I picked up her car at the mechanics place and I used that as a convenient reason to stop for lunch there....

I wonder if they put cilantro flavored crack in their rice.....

Fahrenheit 451

So, in class we are reading Dog Soldiers by Robert Stone...and I like it....and I seem to be the only one who does:)

You've got crazy characters, culture (counterculture), and well drugs....but the kids in my class don't get it...to quote a fellow classmate "i can't even find sparknotes on it...it's so old, like why are we reading this?"

heres the question I would like to pose: "Why are you in school?" ....the apathy towards learning anything is amazing.

i have a mound of books waiting to be read, while half of my peers would prefer to burn a mound of books...how depressing!

Give me good food..or give me...liberty?

Writing a analysis ...of someone else's work...
I find it weird to pick apart something and not know if I am even right about it....
What if I am drawing something out that isn't there....is my analysis in some way contrived more for me personally...hmmm...it leaves a bad taste in my mouth

Speaking of bad taste...this new preztel at work...horrible...I am sooo unimpressed....didn't the marketing team taste the damn thing before they marketed it...tres horrible...blah...gag...die....

They should hire me to taste...I have precise tastebuds...and a massive appetite....tis true

I am an proud fatty...mmm

Anywho, things are coming together...minus sushi being sick:(...but everything else is getting less on the fritz...yea:)

Thanks to Chipolte-Maven at work I feel like I need to go to Europe....thank you ...so time to save:)

no bunny here

you may or may not find this funny......
so i was walking my mom's dog this morning and all was good. Then he started looking for this stupid bunny that lives in the pine trees and refused to do any business (you know what I mean). Anywho, at this point I was annoyed and told Willy "NO BUNNY HERE", and he wandered aimlessly still. Well, we left that part of the yard and lo and behold I see the forsaken bunny. I see the bunny....and Willy totally missed it. I spent twenty minutes outside, while he looked for that bunny...and he missed the damn thing go right by us.

When I get to wondering in spiritual (non-religious) terms...could this relate to my life?

A formula that might work

The other day I became nostalgic and was looking through some really old photos of my family. In a not uncommon moment I started to think about what would I, as a child think about my now adult (semi-adult) self.

It hurts to think I would be dissapointed.
In evaluating my current situation I can see I am possibly a tad bit lame. I went away to school but came home. It is my 3rd year of university and I am only 5 years away from graduating. I work in a coffee shop where I put in way too much effort. While all my friends are at school.
getting trashed and layed...I am at home doing neither (at least majority of the time).

But....whats interesting is that I like my lameness sometimes...I may have bypassed a normal stage of life by possibly growing up too quickly, but I think I am ok

I treasure stability...since it has been lacking my whole entire life

Anywho on a more interesting note....I am almost finished with the blankie I am crocheting. Also, if there is some weird glich in the universe I may be getting a promotion..yay for more money (cross your fingers I would like to move out).

And I think an old crush has died (figuratively).

Last funny moment...hold it....we have high rolly chairs in my micro lab ...and boy are they slippery...i sent the mother all the way across the room trying to get my ass perched on it...it's ok only the cutest guy in class sits right behind me:)

~Boo